Monday, October 03, 2005
was i being ignored?
do i have a chance to grab this dream?
so what if i'd have upon a star?
will this dream come true?
will i give up something i have been wanting for the past 5 months?
will i just fall into an endless pit after more than 5 months?
i know i haven't done much.
i know i've got no initiative.
i know i really suck in such things.
i know i've said i'm willing to wait.
but.
will you give me a single chance to proof myself to you.
will you allow me to express what i've been hiding.
i'm on a branch of a tree which is at the edge of a cliff.
the branch cracks as each day goes by.
whatwill happen when the day comes?
will the branch just give way and i fall straight down?
or.
will you get me off the branch.
safe.
and.
happy?
i am in no position to make the decision.
i will respect yours.
no doubt.
but.
i don't know what will happen after the verdict is out.
i want a life sentence.
a positive life sentence.
a happy one.
awaiting the day of the verdict.
5:48 pm