Thursday, March 31, 2005
she.. sms-ed me today..
asking if i was ngri..
i told her i'm not..
but din told her i was..
i told her i'm sad..
no reply i had..
wondering what she's thinking rite now..
my heart hurts.. it cries out, "OW!"
i'm gonna msg her b4 i slp..
but will she be aslp or be waken up by a beep?
wld she reply if she sees it?
i hope she wld or i will feel i juz fell into an endless pit..
girl oh girl, oh wat shld i do..
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3:56 pm
Wednesday, March 30, 2005
star lite.. star brite.. i wish i may.. i wish i mite..
haix..
no idea y i typed tt..
today we had the department thingy..
we stood for so long..
i cnt stand for too long..
my back and my right knee.. they were hurtin..
something's really wrong with my back..
but.. i still carry on.. helping my department settle stuffs..
haix..
my certs.. i only have 4.. 4..
not even a KOTO..
am i worth being called a number 1?
i almost cried.. i really wanted to..
this ain't a gd week for me..
i'm a failure..
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me and jj walked to MRT station.. they were infront..
haix..
me and jj.. 2 sad peeps..
haix..
haven sms-ed her since ytd.. except a gd nite msg..
saw her a couple of times todae.. besides during SJ..
everytime i see her.. i feel like talkin to her..
but.. i juz do not know how to open my mouth..
and i still dare say tt jj was 'bu zhi dong'..
haix..
does she know how i feel rite now?
i.. i do not know.. i really do not know..
something is pulling me away from her..
asking me to give up..
but i won't.. i won't..
haix..
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if u r reading this..
i juz wanna tell u..
i'll wait..
i'll wait for my chance to come..
i'll wait.. i'll wait.. i'll wait..
i will.. i really will..
hope u read this.. really do..
1:18 pm
Tuesday, March 29, 2005
haix..
haix..
haix..
This is my new blog.. hi.. terence here.. introducing one of the dumbest blogs in da world..
terence is a carnerd and he loves pink.. explains the name.. doesn't it..
well.. todae.. after accounts remedial.. i waited for her.. for abt 2 hrs..
in this 2hrs, i cld hav gone hm to rest..
in this 2hrs, i cld have not done any cleaning of the SJ Store..
but.. i still waited for her.. no complains..
her remedial ended.. she sms-ed me..
"eh.. i'm done"
i replied, "can wait awhile?"
she replied to tell me she wasn't feeling well so she went hm first..
immediately i juz ran from outside the SJ rm.. to the foyer..
she wasn't there.. then i walked quickly to the sch gate and called her..
she answered the call..
i asked her where she was..
she said she was already at 7-11..
i was surprised.. she walked so fast..
i told her to wait..
she said she was with another guy, we'll juz call him "converse", or juz "C"..
she also said she was goin hm with him..
depressed i was.. i juz said in a soft tone, "bye"..
dun tink she noes how i feel.. even now..
so i walked to the MRT station.. i saw them..
i turned left and walked outside, across the road.. i overtaken them..
i noticed their walkin speed.. it wasn't tt fast..
cld they have left immediately after she sms-ed me she was done? nt waitin for me?
i dun know.. and i do not want to make false assumptions..
i reached the MRT station.. the setting sun just in my face..
sitting on the bench.. heartbroken.. depressed..
then they came..
they happily said hi to me.. bt i replied in a depressing tone..
"C" asked me why i look so depressed.. then he asked me if i was bored..
i told him i was bored.. (sry God.. for lying..)
then he asked me if i was angry..
i shooked my head.. though i was angry with him.. *ArGh*
they walked away..
they went into the train.. abt 5-6 doors away frm the door i entered..
we arrived at our station.. (we alight at the same place..)
i went out.. saw her laughing/smiling..
i rushed down the stairs, wondering if they saw me..
then i juz walk back home.. and here i am..
i'm thinkin.. y shld i be angry with "C"?
it's a fair fight between the both of us.. i know he likes her.. bt does he know tt i do?
doubt so..
i'm wondering.. does she noe how i'm feeling now?
if she were to read this.. wat wld her response be?
haix.. what am i to do.. haix..
gd bye..
10:53 am
