Saturday, July 02, 2005
argh..
how tiring 2 days can get..
yawnz..
here goes my post..
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-[ X - country ]-
well..
like i expected..
i cldn't reach my expected target..
got..
46 of more than 140 peeps..
sigh..
so disappointing..
thought could have got at least 30+..
i walked less than 4min..
i don't think i even walked for more than 2..
i pushed myself..
my abdominal area was hurting like heck..
cldn't breathe well..
but carried on running..
at the end of the 4.8km run..
DISAPPOINTMENT!!!
crap..
cldn't take it when i reached the finishing line..
saw my number..
"46"..
freaking angry with myself..
shook the darn barrier so hard that eyes were staring..
my whole body felt so freaking hot..
head was hurting..
cldn't stand well..
i really cannot believe it!!!
46?!?!
not even top 40?!?!
CRAP!!!
to think i had high hopes..
on what???
the ants on the ground?!?!
AHH!!!!!!
SIGH SIGH SIGH!!!
control..
control..
anw..
i shld be happy for her..
she got a trophy..
she's..
good..
i'm not..
forget it..
just have to work hard for next year..
this year was just a total disappointment..
D-I-S-A-P-P-O-I-N-T-M-E-N-T
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-[ SJAB Carnival ]-
today..
we celebrated 70yrs of SJAB..
had a carnival at the SJAB HQ..
there were games, food and beverages and games..
oh ya..
performances too..
food and beverages were..
not v good..
ok..
who am i kidding..
IT WAS A TOTAL..
nvm..
shldn't comment much..
or else i'll stirr up trouble..
AGAIN..
well..
the games were ok..
only 1 game..
which i like..
basketball..
won many things..
files and stationary..
i think i had 15-20 prizes??
gave loads away..
to those little girls..
yes..
you kids ARE little..
well..
then there was the performance..
we watched it under the scorching sun..
which many got sunburnt..
i think i had too..
my face was red when i was at bugis..
my arms were too..
well..
at least i can get tanned..
which was good..
what i wanted..
=]
and i had a headache..
horrible one..
only one that noticed..
Eugene..
gave me "shelter" and drinks..
thnx dude..
glad to know you care..
anw..
so happy to see her dancing..
well..
if you shld even know this blog ever exists..
you did great..
well..
we took some pictures after everything..
and i poked some balloons too..
uh huh..
and that was..
the carnival..
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well..
that's bout it..
gtg rest my feet, back, and head..
my heart too..
=[
well..
byes..
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no1 knows how i'm feeling now except you Lord..
my heart hurts..
heal me please..
let her know how i feel..
give me a sign if i should just..
let go..
tears rolling down my cheek..
for whom..
for you..
8:49 pm
